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I am still here...
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..and I'll try to be back as soon as possible.
The past year has been very difficult for me. I moved twice, left school due my depressions and social anxiety, now work in a small part time job and have many "adult" stuff to manage.
LOL, I am already 20 years old and I struggle with so many simple tasks but I try to do my best.
Many of you have heard it already, my dear friend
was found dead by her brother and fiance this weekend.
I am still in shock and tear up every time I think about Ceci (tagl) and how she had helped me through very hard times a few years ago. She was my very first inspiration when I started being on deviantart almost 7 years ago and after some commissions we started talking to eachother. She was a pure angel and because of her I have never given up on my art because her kind words always kept me going.
I was struggling a lot with my art during the past months, I felt like I was doing way too less improvement and started disliking what I was doing. Now with the Ceci's death it threw me for a short while in sort of a black hole and I didn't know how I was supposed to get out of it. Seriously I was really close to stop doing what I love.
After overthinking everything for a long time (and after many hours of Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild gameplay) I decided that giving up would be the worst I can do. It would be unfair to myself and unfair to Ceci, too, who has always supported me.
So when I am getting out on my current artblock (I am working my way out of it with sketches and some old commissions I really need to finish), I will finally be more active again and finally do something out of the thing I love the most: creating art.
Thanks for everyone who has never stopped supporting me throughout the years. Sadly due my lack of inactivity not many are left, but I am very happy nonetheless.
Thank you for everything.
Featured Art: Commissions done by tagl. Rest in peace, my angel ♥
The past year has been very difficult for me. I moved twice, left school due my depressions and social anxiety, now work in a small part time job and have many "adult" stuff to manage.
LOL, I am already 20 years old and I struggle with so many simple tasks but I try to do my best.
Many of you have heard it already, my dear friend
was found dead by her brother and fiance this weekend. I am still in shock and tear up every time I think about Ceci (tagl) and how she had helped me through very hard times a few years ago. She was my very first inspiration when I started being on deviantart almost 7 years ago and after some commissions we started talking to eachother. She was a pure angel and because of her I have never given up on my art because her kind words always kept me going.
I was struggling a lot with my art during the past months, I felt like I was doing way too less improvement and started disliking what I was doing. Now with the Ceci's death it threw me for a short while in sort of a black hole and I didn't know how I was supposed to get out of it. Seriously I was really close to stop doing what I love.
After overthinking everything for a long time (and after many hours of Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild gameplay) I decided that giving up would be the worst I can do. It would be unfair to myself and unfair to Ceci, too, who has always supported me.
So when I am getting out on my current artblock (I am working my way out of it with sketches and some old commissions I really need to finish), I will finally be more active again and finally do something out of the thing I love the most: creating art.
Thanks for everyone who has never stopped supporting me throughout the years. Sadly due my lack of inactivity not many are left, but I am very happy nonetheless.
Thank you for everything.
Featured Art: Commissions done by tagl. Rest in peace, my angel ♥
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